Back Away from the Nutter Butters and No One Gets Hurt

To put it lightly today was a struggle. I woke up this morning feeling great, ready to take on the world and tackle anything in my way. I was determined to bust through my work day joyfully and try to burn as many calories I could by moving and keeping busy. I started my day off with a healthy breakfast, the usual oatmeal and a grape fruit along with a big glass of water and green tea. Even though I am eating every three hours and filling my diet with healthy foods, fibers and proteins I am still struggling with hunger. I am not certain if I am just not getting enough calories or maybe I am doing something wrong. I have read in many places that I should eat every 3-4 hours to keep my metabolism up, and than I have read that I should never ever snack between meals. Does anyone have any advice on what to eat or even do to overcome my hunger problems? Or could this possibly be psychological? 

For the past 6 days I have been doing very well with cravings. In fact I haven`t thought about pop, fast food, or any comfort food hardly at all. Than suddenly around 1 o`clock it hit me unexpectedly. There laying in front of me was a bag of cheese puffs, and I went to grab for them and suddenly I stopped. First of all, I don`t even like cheese puffs. Second of all, I didn`t really need it. Third and most important was that even by thinking about eating cheese puffs I feel so guilty as though I am cheating on Michael and letting him down and for a matter of fact anyone who is following us and supporting us. So, I backed away from the cheese puffs. By the time four o`clock rolled around, I found myself facing yet another gargantuan situation concerning my hunger issues. I would like to blame this completely on the Nutter Butter Sandwich Cookies and its inviting taste, however, I must take responsibility. The vending machine looked so inviting with all that yummy, high calorie food that it was so hard to resist. In fact I was pretty certain I heard it calling my name (no I am not hallucinating). In order to avoid a food catastrophe I removed myself from the warm, cozy break room and went out side in the freezing cold and sat my tuckus on a cold bench eating my apple and almonds. A part of me was sulking, I really wanted that Nutter Butter cookie, yet there was a part that was celebrating because I yet again succeeded against temptation. The hours slowly passed at work and I became even more hungry, and a bit irritable because everything at this point seemed to make my mouth water. I had visions of Wendy`s chicken sandwiches, McDonald's hamburgers, Starbucks Latte`s all dancing in my head. I have not yet determined if these visions were due to extreme hunger or maybe emotional eating. I will confess I am an emotional eater, a stress eater, and a boredom eater. Ok, you caught me I am every type of eater except a little eater. On the drive home, the hour drive home may I add, I cringed every single time I passed an exit with one of my favorite fast foods. I made it home safely, without any incidents but temptation was nipping at my heals all day long. I just pray that temptation gives me a break tomorrow because she was sure nasty today.

Tonight Mike cooked me a delicious dinner. We got to use our new rice cooker/steamer. This was so exciting!!!! He steamed carrots and rice for me and cooked me a delicious mouth watering piece of chicken with his own seasonings. It wasn't Wendy`s , McDonalds, or even those Nutter Butter Cookies, it was BETTER!!! I was extremely glad that I waited and resisted all temptation all day long! I took a picture of our meal tonight, to share with you and also because I thought it deserved a picture.

Yummy in my tummy

Brown rice, steamed carrots, chicken with Sicilian spice blend + cayenne pepper

Michael testin' out the new rice cooker and steamer!

Tomorrow I start classes again. I have written out a plan of snacks throughout the days I have classes so the hunger monster does not come out. I am excited for a new semester and also I have access to a free gym! Which I am taking advantage of tomorrow! I am dreading it a little, but I have music!!! More tomorrow...Stay Tuned...

Jocelyn