Well folks I guess I should say "Hello", sorry it has been so long! My schedule has been nothing short of hectic. Between figuring out my new schedule and incorporating it into my life and keeping up with school I am slowly drowning. Sometimes I just want to come home and pass out, and sometimes I do. With that being said my lifestyle change has been slowly slacking as well.
My schedule is currently a balance between first shift and second shift. Adding school into that you have a recipe for chaos. It is becoming rather difficult to have an eating schedule like I did as well as cooking every night. My plan was to rely on slow cooked meals but as of right now that is not even working. Honestly, we have had good intentions with buying healthy foods and setting goals, but some of them have not been put back into place. I will say that I am still eating healthy lunches but not as much water as I used to due to it is hard to drink as much water as I used to during work. Everything has changed in my life and I am still trying to adapt.
Some days when I step on the scale I feel as though it is lying and I am really not loosing any weight. I am stuck on a plateau and I can not get off it. I know my number one problem is my fear and also not willing to move forward. I know I have to up my game and change my plans. I always have great plans but have a very difficult time putting them into action.
However, I still have high hopes. I have so many things to look forward to this year that I want to look fantastic at. Michael and I have many weddings to go to this year and I would love to feel great in a dress instead of obsessing which color makes my thighs look smaller, which cut makes my arms slimmer, and which fabric clings less to my belly. For once I would love to throw on a dress and just go with it but for the time being I can not. This October my best friend is getting married and I am her maid of honor! It is so exciting to me and also a big honor to be a part of her special day but than there is that part of me that doesn`t want to stand up in front of 100 plus people and speak with the body I have at this time. There are so many things that keep me holding on to my goals but so many things that have me letting go.
As Michael shared with you my friend helped create a workout for me. I really need to put it into play. Yes, I am admitting I have not really worked out to that plan yet. Tomorrow I am going to sit down and write out my schedule. I feel a daily schedule right at this moment will help me the most. So, time management and meal planning is my goal for tomorrow.
I am also going to try to blog more as much as I can. I really want to continue this lifestyle change until the end...well there is no end to this really. There is no giving up. I remember in the beginning I was all about this and than slowly day by day I found myself slowly giving in to my old life. I know things have changed since January. I am lighter, I feel better and even my taste buds have changed but yet sometimes I feel like I have moved no where!
So with my goals in mind...CHEERS to TOMORROW!!
I HAVE HIGH HOPES!
For Now,
Jocelyn
We are Mike and Jocelyn and we are 29 and 27 years old. We are a couple who are sick and tired of being over weight. Honestly, we have probably been on hundreds of fad diets and of course none of them worked. Our goal for 2014 is to not go on a diet but a lifestyle change in order to get healthy for our future. We are accepting no excuses from each other and we will push each other to the end. Please join us as we begin our journey of a healthier lifestyle and meeting our goals of weight loss.
Where are you? I miss your posts!
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